Sunday, January 29, 2017

What does an A1C of 9 mean?

Recently I went into John Peter Smith of Fort Worth for leg pain. It had gotten so bad that I had all the signs of Diabetic Neuropathy and the news from the doctor was kinda meh. I was told that if I don't get my behind in gear then I'll probably be in a wheelchair in two years. "Oh hell no" is what I say to that. I am not going to let this blood glucose level ruin my life and career. Though I doubt being in a wheelchair would ruin my life because I would purchase one of those sport wheelchairs and run races.

To get back on topic, my A1C has gone from 12 to 9. The goal is to get it around 5. I'll see how that goes in the next three months when it's time to take another A1C blood test. Right now my blood glucose is running around 210 or higher depending on what I eat. Of course my ultimate goal with Diabetes is to get my A1C around 5 so that my BGL is running around 120. Most doctors believe 120 to be prediabtic. Most of the time insulin shots are not needed.

Basicly, partly good news from the Doctor. Still a struggle on this weight loss journey but a well worthy battle of weight loss. What happens from here? I stick to whole grain breads, vegetables, fruits, and lean meats. I have a feeling that I am going to struggle with this on my weight loss journey toward better health. I tend to get bored with cooking and want to order out. 

Let's check back in 3 months on a new A1C report.

Back from hiding!

Life has not been going well. I'm the type of person that hides and licks her wounds before coming out into the world again. I promise to share more information over the coming days, weeks, and years. This will be a mixture of weight loss for this future medic and lifes little journeys.

I hope that you will gain insight about fighting Diabetes as I spend my life fighting it. I hope that you will end up celebrating with me. I hope that you will cry with me during the sad times. 

Ultimately, I hope that you live your life to the fullest!

Monday, April 18, 2016

Maybe I should wait to find love....

I thought a year and a half was long enough to wait. I've been divorced since 2014. Nothing horrible, no fighting, no domestic abuse. After 14 years, we just discovered that we were two different people. We didn't have the same ambitions in life. He didn't want to be part of the community as much as I did.

Don't get me wrong. My exhusband did have ambition but he didn't have follow through. He would come up with some great ideas but then the fire would fizzle out. He tended to get distracted a lot. In truth, after 14 years, I realized that I needed more in my life. I wasn't getting the support that I needed.

I'm finding the dating scene frustrating. It's not easy finding time to go on dates either. I work a fifty hour week. I go to school 25 hours a week. I maybe have twenty hours to get dressed up and go out with someone. I wish I could find someone that worked the night shift like I did. In truth, there are a couple guys that I have met that do work nights but sadly they are not interested. 

Perhaps I should focus on:

  • My health
  • My fitness
  • My job
  • My career
  • My savings
  • My new apartment
  • My education


Perhaps I should put the energy out there that I would love a friend to go out with. Someone to share life with. It doesn't have to be a romantic involvement unless it happens that way naturally. Let the universe put to people together. If it works then it works.

Sunday, April 17, 2016

My deltoid is on fire!

I wish I could say that I'm in pain because I was breaking up a fight at work. Or obtained the injury from picking up a patient at work. The truth is that I woke up with the pain in my Deltoids. It's so painful that picking up a 12 ounce can of soda hurts. I have a feeling that I'm dealing with this kind of pain because I wrestled in my dreams a week ago.

Now I'm dealing with frustration. I've missed a week of work. I know this is something that is not of my control but I do not like missing work. We are already short staffed at work. This puts a strain on the team. Every time I miss work for a medical reason I always feel like I'm going to lose my job. Even though it's a serious medical reason, I am still uneasy.

I am also the type of person that doesn't like to depend on other people. Sure I'll depend on you if your part of my team at work. When it comes to personal stuff. I like to do it on my own. I've been this way since childhood. In truth, I had to be this way as a child because I was taking care of myself most of the time. Yes, I was one of those 80's latchkey kids that attended to my studies till Mom came home from her shift.

I'm so dependent on someone else that it's driving me crazy. It's like being a child. I can't cook for myself unless I can throw the food into the microwave. Forget about putting on a bra and shirt myself. Oh let's add socks and shoes unless I want to be in pain. I can't even pull a blanket over my body. 

So let's just say that this Medic is not a happy camper. 

Friday, April 15, 2016

Diabetic Medics Dreams: Womans voices, Baby crying, Old spirit

I always have strange dreams. I try to keep track of them. I like to see what I can learn from my dreams so that I can change my life for the better. Truthfully our dreams are simply mirrors of our subconsciousness. We really should not let it go to waste. 

So the dream is that I am moving into a new room. I'm back at college but this time I'm actually living in a fraternity house. One of the girls shows me to my room. Then warns me. "If it's really really quiet, you will hear a baby cry." In that instant I do hear a baby cry and suddenly an old woman appears out of nowhere. I literally feel myself jump back and run out of the room. 

What does a baby crying in dreams mean? Babies symbolize something in your own inner nature that is pure, vulnerable, helpless and/or not corrupted. To dream of a crying baby symbolizes a part of yourself that is deprived of attention and needs to be nurtured. Alternatively, it represents your unfulfilled goals and a sense of lacking in your life.

Honestly, this is really true. I have ended two relationships in the past year or so. I know that we should not base our selves on the people that we have in our lives. It just seems like my life has been consisted of work, school, and working out. I need to find some time to relax and do things that I enjoy. Even if it means doing them by myself.

What about the ghost in the room? What does it mean in a dream? 
To see a ghost in your dream represents something that is no longer obtainable or within reach. It indicates that you are feeling disconnected from life and society. Try to figure out what the ghost wants or what it is looking for. The dream may also be a calling for you to move on and abandon your outdated modes of thinking and behavior. Dreaming that you are being stalked or haunted by a ghost indicates that you are refusing to confront issues from your past which is affecting your present life.

So basically my dream is telling me that I am a recluse. With work, school, and the gym I have disconnected myself from the world. Unfortunately, this is a necessary evil. I have six more months until I get my degree in Emergency Medicine A. Then I have to take the state test to become an EMT A. 

I have to hit the gym because I want to be in the best possible shape that I can be in. I have been so out of shape these past 15 years. I need to make the necessary changes so that I can live for another 15+ years.  I plan on not taking insulin for the rest of my life. I plan on not losing my eyesight. I plan on not losing my extremities. 



Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Diabetic Medic is Tuesdays child

Do you remember a week ago Fort Worth, Texas? When I was talking about being Tuesday's child. A woman full of grace and fluid gestures. Today I took my first step to gain back the cat style composure that I had as a teen. Thinking back to that time, I wasn't a bull in a china shop. I was actually graceful. Today though, I feel more like Dwayne The Rock in Game Plan.



I pretty much spent the morning cleaning my studio, thinking about someone I care about a lot, thinking about my future, practicing Ballet first position and second position. The truth is that Ballet is not easy at all. It's all about form and muscle control. I like that! I look forward to adding more moves and maybe taking some dancing classes. Just another goal to add to my weight loss journey.

Sunday, March 20, 2016

VA Police Officers and their kindness

Time magazine spoke with Police Officers around the country about why the became Police Officers. Today's first person account comes from Senior Patrol Officer Angelo Harris. Hey Officer Harris if your reading this! Keep up the great work.

"On Christmas Day 2001, I got shot in my grandma's front yard. An individual approached me asking if I knew how to get drugs, then a second person came up behind me and tried to reach into my pocket. When the first guy took out a handgun. I turned to run, and that's when I felt the impact near my left knee. My grandparents called the police. The officers were so reassuring. It was remarkable how fast they came up with suspects. It touched me to the point where I wanted to do the same."

Don't you think that Officer Harris has an interesting start. We often want to become or do the thing that affects us the most. This was a life changing event. I'm sure there are hundreds of men and women out there that could share the most amazing stories of why they became a Police Officer or decided to work for Emergency Services.